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A New Glow

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There, it’s been said. You can’t deny it now.
“Colt, you’re glow is back,” said my agent with a raised eyebrow.
I’ve said it once and I’ll say it a million times more.  Ever since I was little, materials things didn’t matter to me. Sure, what kid can deny the adventure of walking down Route 1 towards the first gym or traveling to a Shadow Realm. Those were fleeting moments that merely built structure to my life. No, my end goal from day one was finding that person who held the other half of my soul. And I like to believe that I’ve found him.
Originally thought to be a girl, because you know gay is a sin. I quickly realized that wasn’t making me happy denying who I was. When I finally admitted to myself what I actually was and what greatness I was hiding underneath, the world began opening up. When it did, he was there.
It can be argued that in today’s world there no longer exists a one true love but instead multiple loves that continue to push us forward until the end. I disagree. Th…

To You

I'm kicking myself right now. I had this all typed out excellently and it got deleted on my phone right before publishing. Now I'm on my computer trying to retype out all of my feelings that have now been released into a digital void, unable to be reclaimed.

I'm scared.

This past week has been a roller coaster ride to say the least. It started out with my cat having issues to my heart quickly breaking down inside me. Let me tell you the story.

Early last week I came home to find Shadow bloated on the floor, barely moving, and rigid with pain. It looked like he was trying to pee everywhere but unsuccessful. I tried to hold him, massage his stomach, or coax him with treats with no change. I was sure I was going to lose him and finally be alone.

I managed to go to bed only to be greeted with one of my regular dreams. Again I was the one asking for forgiveness and none being given. Waking, I was covered in sweat with tears running down my facing making my heart finally break …

My Hell

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I know it's been a long while since I posted. In fact, I didn't even finish the 30 Days of Pride writing prompt.

I'll admit to being lazy and ill-motivated to really accomplish anything. Recent days have had me rethinking this process. (And I missed the intro image so I thought I'd add it for spice.)

Basically my days are spent working, coming home and entertaining myself for a couple hours, then bed. For the weekends I sleep later, entertain myself til I'm hungry, drive around town snacking on various fast food, coming home to entertain myself numbly again, then bed. This has to end.

This last weekend I went out and bought some new gym clothes, got myself some workout supplements and food, and I spent two hours each day in the gym. Before you say anything, no I didn't spend the majority of the time on my phone. In fact, my phone was in my pocket the majority of the time listening to whatever song came on.

I can't say that I've pushed myself to the edg…